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birthday

Just wanna wish my little sista a Happy Birthday!
she seems to like the card and handphone chain that I made =D

I wondered what do couples do when they are together?

I have the chance to fall in love and be loved... something that more than a year ago was just a fantasy. He's not the person I thought I will fall for, but he accepted my flaws, he's nice to me... I thought it was enough, but from all the fantasies and the love drama series, I unconsciously have certain expectations of him, and when he didn't fulfill those expectations, I will throw my tantrum . I pushed his patience one too many times, but at the end of the day he forgave me, we forgave each other.

I told myself to have no more expectation and just receive whatever come to me. I tried, but I couldn't. I still have fantasies. I still wish that he could be more romantic, that he would spend less time on the computer games, that we will spend some romantic times together. What do I want from him? What do I want us to do together?.... he asked me very obvious, matter-of-fact questions, but each time I don't know what to answer. I don't know what I want, I just don't like what we have at the moment.

Going to the movies, going out for meals together... the typical activities. I'm not so much a movie type of person. I don't really like to go the the cinema. It's expensive and the seats are uncomfortable. Then, he asked me again... I always complained that we kept doing the same things, that we didn't go out and when he asked me to catch a movie, I didn't want to go.
I don't know what I want exactly, but obviously it is not going to a movie or a bar!

I read some of my friends' blog. Those lovebirds had picnics together, went to the parks together... I wondered, wouldn't it be nice to do that to with him. but he's just not the type of person and I'm not sure if that is what I want either, but we haven't tried those yet... People says it's better to be with a guy who's not romantic as most romantic guys are playboys...are they?

At the end of the day, what ever complaints or dissatisfaction that i have, Icouldn't bear the thought of not having him be part of my life. Is this love?

I had a haircut a week ago and I hated it! I will never cut my hair again in us (except in the salon in dallas). I look so aunty... the bottom line is that it's way too short and it made me not want to look at my reflection in the mirror. I will wash my hair everyday so my hair would hopefully grow longer faster.

I had my 22nd bday and how I spent it? I cooked laksa for around 15 people... My roommate and ana helped me a lot with the prep and cooking. Thanks guys! Roommate asked me why was it that I cooked -- preparing my own birthday party. I guess I just didn't want my birthday to be to quiet and normal. Truth be told, I wanted a party and I know there won't be one. So, prepare the party myself. Everyone's happy and full at the end and it was a fulfilling birthday.

I have been thinking a lot lately. Too much thoughts that I broke down. I called my mum and I cried. I felt so foolish for calling home as soon as I heard her worried voice. It wasn't a big deal it was just her daughter was in a point of desparation. If she didn't talk to anyone she will soon go mental! But talking to my parents about my worries helped a lot. Part of my worries was because I was scared of letting them down. I don't know what I want to do. I can't see the path that I'm suppose to take. I have no sense of direction. I'm lost... Hearing their concern, and most importantly their understanding put my worries at ease, some of it anyway. I know I shouldn't have worried them, but I guess I also wanted them to know not to put too high expectation on their eldest daugther.

I yearn for changes. I wanted to leave this place. I wanted to start a new. I wanted to begin a new chapter of my life by building everything from scratch. Those were what I ended up feeling after thinking. That comes for a girl who doesn't like changes, who doesn't like the unexpected, who prefer things to be constant.

I guess it says a lot of what I have been feeling lately of this place and everything related to this city. I felt that I lost the drive to do anything. I just felt sick and tired of everything here. I don't know if moving to another place is the right decision or I will come to regret it. There are priceless memories in this city, but for some reason, I just wanted those to be just memories, to be the past.