I'm going back to jkt soon. I'm predicting a dull month ahead :S I'm happy to be back, eat Nasi Padang, Rendang, Satay, the nice seafood, E-mie.... and visited my aunt, uncle, cute baby cousin, Vennycia, but I'll be with my dad and I would be alone when he goes to work :(

Anyway, I forgot to mention that I met Roni at the zoo!!! Here's the proof


Apparently, he'd had a sex operation and taken the form of a giraffe!!! Haha... Bercanda, Ron! Tapi, lu jadi jerapa lebih cute daripada jadi monyet deh! :P

My family and I went to the zoo yesterday (to celebrate my bro's b'day). Haha... NO, actually, we just went there cause I've never been to the Singapore Zoo before. We're bored at home and i'm tired of window shopping, so it's time for something different. Besides, it's a family outing! Wish my dad is here! Anyway,

Happy B'day, BRO!

The trip to the zoo was a little boring, and the weather was humid. But i saw some animals that i've never seen before, like the baboons, and zebra (i've never seen zebra before), and kangaroo... most importantly, I spent some quality time with my family!!!

What was I expecting? I should have known.

I'm pissed with myself! I should have been more decisive and braver and insisted on living in the dorm. Last night, I couldn't help but think of how different my life would have been should I lived in the dorm. Now, even if I could stay there, I don't think I would like it very much. I mean people "upgrade" from dorm to apt, not the other way round, right?

*sigh*

I just hope that things would not be as bad as I thought, and hopefully things would fall into places...just take things one step at a time :S

Steven Gerrard shone for England against Brazil :D
Beckham's back. I'm not sure how helpful he would be to the England squad. I guess Steve McClaren must be at the end of his tether, desperate for something to save himself! but kudos to beckham, at least he didnt' play that badly at the friendly. Poor lampard! But it's either him or Gerrard get booded in the midfield, so i'm glad gerrard proved himself well and i'm his supporter!

Happy 27th Birthday, Stevie G!!!

Liverpool lost, as i expected. Well, I was hoping that I was wrong, but...
*sigh*
I had to say that Liverpool did well in the first half to contain Milan. Milan didn't have much space to control the game. But Liverpool missed a few good chances. The final match was rather boring =( I wasn't very sad, may be cause i've prepared for Milan to win. Gotta agree with gattuso, it's liverpool's turn to leave in tears, but if it's of any consolation, people would remember 2005 more than they would remember the final in 2007, no? Well, to me I would. And this is not just because I'm a Liverpool fan.

Rumor has it that Rafa is going to sign Torres!!! :D I hope it's not just rumor! haha...

In Athens tomorrow, Liverpool vs AC Milan.

As a Liverpool fan, it's very hard for me to say this, I think AC Milan will win. They are the better side, even when Liverpool beat them in 2005, they were-are-still the better team. Of course I hope that Lady Luck will be on Liverpool side again this time, but that's not very likely, is it? Luck is sometimes necessary in football. I'm not saying that Liverpool won 2 years ago by pure luck. It took lots of strategizing, and determination to come back from 3 goals down. All in all, I don't think such things will happen. If the scoreline were to be the same in half-time, a comeback would be difficult this time.

Well, I thought Man U will win the FA Cup, but i was wrong. Wrong again this time? I won't mind. In fact, I hope I'm wrong!

AT hawker center. on the mrt

Clarke Quay

Just came back from the gathering with 4e1'05 peeps. Haven't seen them for a year. They look more or less the same, although some look rather different. A Kwa has grown so tall. It felt a little weird seeing him that tall. I always thought that he's tip-toeing. Haha...

The gathering was rather boring, I have to say. We didn't know what to do after lunch :S Wanted to eat claypot rice, but the stall didn't open, so we ended up eating chu chao- fish n veggie. Thereafter, one by one, the people started to disappear. They had to go home to study, do homework blah blah... Went to Clarke Quay caused never been there before. It's so boring there. If I know, i would have chosen to go to vivo city again :(

Anyway, it was real nice to meet them again after a year! Hope we can have another gathering, which is much much much better than this! I'm sure i'm not asking too much. Till then...

i'll post the photos when i got them.

yesterday, I just learnt that i won't be able to watch CL Final on Ch. 5. This is what to hate about S'pore!!! I don't subscribe to SCV :( Have to watch it online, but online is so unreliable. Nearly a week in Singapore. So far, I've been going out everyday with my parents. Been wanting to meet my friends, but they have schools... NO worries, meeting them this weekends :D I'm so excited!!! But i'm not really sure how things will go. What should I say to them after meeting again from a year of absence? I think i'll just let nature take its course.

I have to make a confession:

As much as I hate Stilly, there are some things worth missing in Stilly!

This was written while waiting for my flight to Singapore.

I’m on my way home to Singapore now!!! So excited, yet I don’t really know what to expect. How if things won’t go as I expect them to be???

Anyway, I met a Singaporean on the plane. Her name is Pricilla. She studied at MIDC or some institution of that kind. Talk to her half of my way to Denver. She’s on the same plane as me to LA, but we didn’t sit together again. She has just graduated so she and a group of friends are going to San Francisco, and then HK for holiday before going back to Singapore. I wonder if I would be able to go for a tour after graduation…

I did some kindness today. First, while waiting for the delayed flight to LA from Denver, I helped 2 ladies saved their seats at the waiting area while they went to the restroom. Then, while calling my parents from the public phone just now, I helped a Korean guy made his call. I know that he’s a Korean as he said, “An-neong-ha-se-yo”. Well, he kinna look Korean too! Although I am going back with HIM, I think I, we, practically going back alone. I told the Singaporean girl that I’m going back alone. Well, HE’s actually sitting on Pricilla’s left while I sat on her left. How was I supposed to tell her that he’s my cousin when we acted like strangers? So we might as well be strangers! As a matter of fact, we are strangers now ever since he decided to treat me like I did not exist!

The check-in counter for economy class for Thai Air has yet to open.

I’m the waiting room now. 2 more hours before departure :S It took a very long time to check-in!!! I didn’t know what took the Thai Air attendants to take such a long time to check people in. Anyway, I was checked in by a guy whose name failed to be remembered by me. He was confused that I only have one name. He asked what my name was. I told him my name and explained that I only have one name. He was still looking at the screen perplexed. He continued to ask, “why you didn’t have a last name?”

“I wasn’t allowed to be given any,” came my reply.

“I can give you one if you want,” he added.

I was taken by surprised by his comment. The attendant besides him laughed at the comment. “What name will you give me?” I answered after a pause.

He gave it a serious thought and answered, “Canthini, Indonesia, since you’re from Indonesia.” I shook my head and said, “No”. Well, he still create a first name for me anyway- Miss. So my name is now read Canthini, Miss.

*sigh* I’m sooooo sleepy now. I want to sleep!!!

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My flight from LA to BKK was delayed by 2 hours!!! The plane reached late and the beam guy was missing -.-" When I reached BKK, I only had 20 minutes to catch my connecting flight to SIN! Luckily, I made it in time, but my luggage didn't. They were on the next flight and the staff at changi airport delivered them to my house :D Didn't have to carry those heavy luggage! Haha... But I was quite worried. This never happened to me before. As soon as I reached Bishan, I indulged myself in Chicken Rice!!! Sooo many yummy food I want to eat!!!

I'm going back tomorrow!!! The day i've been waiting for ever since I came here!

I'm in Roni's house right now. He invited to for dinner, the food was alright. Would rather eat my aunt's food though :P

Anyway, the guys are playing PS2... boring...

Back about the Graduation Party... I went to attend Fery's graduation ceremony. It's the first time I attended a graduation ceremony. Looking at those happy faces of the graduates, I wanted to be one of them, too. I wanted to graduate... I wanted to get my degree... I wanted to be done with studying... I wonder what it feels like to not to study... but at the same time, I know I will missed the days of being a student, of being worried over my studies only...

K, after the ceremony, we went to eat dinner together, and I reached home at about mid-night. I stayed up till 3am in the morning to do some of the decoration!!! I was so dead-tired, but I had to put in my best effort, use my last ounce of energy that was left from 5 days of studying for Finals... The next day, woke up early to go to the library to print the words "GRADUATION PARTY". No time to hand-written it, see. Thereafter, I proceeded to some other decorations, like cutting some more cacti, and burning the papers to give them "cowboy feel". Roni came to helped, though i had to say that he's not much of help. He helped to burn some paper, so did tommy, no he's not my cousin, he just shares the same name. Would those cousins helped me? I think the answer was obvious. The only cousins that helped me was Ani. Anyway, managed to finish it in the nick of time. Went to the venue, put up the limited resources that i have. To hear people say that my decoration was nice was a real contentment :D

Have to work again tomorrow. And I had to work on 5 am in the morning from Wed to Fri!!!! OMG!!!

My creation... I was in charged for the decoration and the theme was "cowboy" so this was what I came up in less than 24 hours. I didn't have much time. My exam ended on Friday and the party was on saturday... but i think I did a good job, although it can be better. Didn't have much help. Ani helped me burn some of the paper, so did tommy n roni. But I did most of the things... waaahhh. I'm good, huh. Haha...

I checked my result just now and I get A for phy n msis, my 2 worse subjects... now, i'm getting paranoid that my better subject won't fare as well :S

better sleep now, gotta sleep. more info about the party next time

3 more exams...

I'm in charge of the decoration for the Indonesian Graduation Party... both happy and sad. happy cause I'll have a post-exam activities. Haha... Sad cause I don't know what to do :(

Anyway, it's nice to able to contribute something...

I wanted to complain about my cousin... yeah, my dislike towards my cousins has grown deeper!

On Friday, we went to the house of Taiwanese aunt whom my cousin (the eldest) know. He's going there to repair the comp. and ask THEM, i wasn't asked see, only a few hours before they go, then ani told me about that. Nothing to do, so I decided to go. Anyway, something happened and makes me hate my cousins even more. This include the eldest as well. So, we ended up talking about my other cousin's house in LA and I asked if the kitchen had an island. I always wanted an island in my kitchen! I was filled with envy when I learnt that there's an island! Then, my eldest cousin muttered out loud that I should just ask my father to build me a house with an island in the kitchen. I told him that it would me my future house. The house of my husband and I and our family,and the house that my husband and I would pay for ourselves. He continued to spite me by saying that if I wanted anything, I just need to ask my father for money, unlike him and his tiwn bro, who had to work hard for their money. I defended myself that I don't need my parents' money. I can earn my own money and those money are for my parents to yang lao, and I still have 2 younger siblings! He continued with his spiteful comment by saying that my dad had enuf money blah...blah...blah... then he mentioned that Sung's dad is worse as all his children are here in usa where the living expenses are more expensive. Well, I think Sung's dad is doing rather fine. What do u think of someone who does nothing at all and still get money from his brother's hard work??? The bottom line is that he, my cousin, HEN PAI CHI WO DE JIA REN.

While having a conversation with the taiwanese aunt, he mentioned how children should not be spoilt and parents should not just give the children what they want..... what a contradiction from what he told me! I rest my case... he doesn't like my family so be it! I don't like his too.
I really regret coming here. I couldn't help but think what would it be if I go to another place. They made me came here and they made me want to leave this place. I hope the friends that I made would made my life here better. I wanted to quickly leave this place!!!

Here's the photo of Rafa sitting cross-legged on the grass. It's the first time I saw any manager doing that! Shows that he's really down to earth, literally! haha...

It's a repeat of 2005 final... Liverpool vs AC Milan. Too bad, A Kwa, ur wish didn't come true :P

Of course I wanted Liverpool to win, but i'm sure Milan would want a revenge :( Just wait for May 23. I'll be back and it's another early morning soccer match... Kinna miss that :D

The match was far from boring. But it's marred by lots of fouls, though. Well, good entertainment! The teams which are in the final are losers from the first leg...

Liverpool is thru to the final!!! Athens beckons :D :D

I'm soooooooooooo happy. All of the sudden, the stress of impending final examination is all gone. I could only watch till full normal time. Then, i had to go to school to take my msis exam :( But I don't care. As long as liverpool won, I don't care. I got to watch a repeat after all. But nothing beats the adrenaline rush of watching a "LIVE" match!

I've never seen Liverpool played that well for some time. Not even when they won 2 seasons ago. They played with hunger, with intensity, with a cause--- to go to Athens. It's a really entertaining yet nail-biting match for me.

As soon as I finished my exam, I dashed to the library and checked out the result. I searched for the clue of the score. I couldn't help but beamed happily as I see the title "Liverpool heading to Athens". Liverpool won!!! I wanted to jump up and bring the library down. But i still have my self-control.

Reina denied robben n geremi, the keeper saved the day (again). Gerrard scored a penalty too. I know he would. He looked so calm and confident! And Rafa looked so funny when he sat cross-legged on the sideline during the penalty shoot-out! Haha... He didn't even smile when Liverpool won! But that's y I like him to be Liverpool's manager. Serious!

Go Liverpool!!! (mourinho, apparently it will take more than 3 years to form a team that could win the cl!)

Funny things that I heard during phy...

during physic revision class, the teacher suddenly asked what's the difference between Grammy and Oscar. And continued to ask who is "the Oscar guy". Then, one student said, "my great-grandfather!"

Then, the teacher asked the class about one question related to light. The same guy asked if he's going to ask that in the exam. The teacher asked him back, why he (the student) asked that. The student answered,"because u always give easy questions and this question is hard!"

Taking about Mexican waves (kallang waves as we refer to in s'pore)...

Student: "why is it called Mexican waves?"
Teacher: "because the first wave, the very first wave, was generated in Mexico!" (who would believe that!)
Teacher: " u ask a question and as the instructor, I'll give u an answer. But whether the answer is correct or not, it's another matter!"

At work, I brought my camera along to take some photos. Surprisingly, the guys,especially steward (y i'm not surprised) willingly obliged. Then, i looked throught the old photos. Photos of the class bbq, the last gathering before I went to usa, at the airport... I muttered rather loudly that I missed my friends. I asked Asagi n Steward if they missed their friends, and they said no. I'm wondering if they have any emotion at all! then, I asked y they didn't miss their friends. Steward seemed to be rather irritated to be asked about missing his friends and said that yeah, he missed his friends to satisfy me :s He then told me that there was one thing that I could do so that I wouldn't miss my friends. I need to find a boyfriend.

I told him that even if i had a boyfriend, i would still miss my friends. He said, "no" very confidently. Will having a boyfriend make a girl forget about her friends? I wonder.

Eric had quit. I just learnt yesterday. No more Eric. It's quite weird actually. Haha... It's haruyuki's last day yesterday. Asagi was so weird all of the sudden. He told me that haruyuki's graduating, and I said that I know. He proceed to say, "I'm sorry!" ???? Question marks ??? I didn't get what he's trying to say. Why he's saying sorry ??? When I suggested taking fotos of the guys, Asagi snatched my camera and insisted of taking my photo with haruyuki. It then dawned upon me what he's thinking! I refused to take photos with Haruyuki! I don't like Haruyuki (in THAT kind of way)! I mean like him as a fellow worker cause working with him is very qing song. He does most of the things :P

I told Asagi about this before and may be he got the wrong idea! Stupid!

Who is who, it's for u to guess ;)

Yesterday was fun! Supporting the indonesian team. WEll, it's not really indonesia. There were malaysians, a chinese and a caucasian. Not enough people! Anyway, the team was thrashed or should I said humiliated 7-0 by africans and 5-0 by japan??? but nothing could dampen our spirit. We were there, participating and supporting, just for fun... and fun we got! I think the last time i did this was during inter-class tournament at zhss.


After the match, it's dinner time. I didn't realize how late it was until I checked my watch when I got to the restaurant. It's 9.30pm!!! No wonder the restaurant wasn't crowded at all. Time flies when u're enjoying yourself. I think that was the happiest time since I came here!

Liverpool beat Middlesbourgh 2-0. The goal scorer??? STEVEN GERRARD!!!

I liked his first goal. So beautifully executed... "Zenden's neat pass dropped into Gerrard's path 25 yards out - and the captain crashed the ball low past Mark Schwarzer" (soccernet). 25 yards!!!

The second was from the spot kick. Crouch was fouled and penalty was awarded to Liverpool. Gerrard took it. This time, I was so sure that he's gonna convert it. His confidence would high, no pressure. And I'm right.

The gunman of the VT shooting was released and as it turned out, he was a quiet guy who suffered from depression. I just thought what kind of things he had went through to be able to do such thing. The media was saying that there might be signs of him being a "troubled" kid with the gross plays that he wrote, etc. But how could the students know? How would the teacher know?

Then, when I was viewing my MSIS exam 2 paper at the prof. office, a guy came in to take his quiz. His reason for missing it: his sister passed away. And his sister was just 18 yrs-old! He said that it was heart attack. Her heart just stopped while she was brushing her teeth. I was so shocked to hear it, so was the professor.

You never know what will happen. Uncertainty... Life is full of uncertainty!

My condolences to the victims of the Virginia Tech University shooting. The deadliest shooting in the US history.

Shocked filled me when I heard of another school shooting...I wonder how a person could do such a thing. What drive them to do it?

This is just a reminder of how things could go wrong ,and how we should value our days. I'm gonna call my mummy later...

A cold, cold Spring semester. My first spring.... turned out to be just like Winter time :(

I finally completed the A draft for my english paper!!! So happy!!!

There's a world cup soccer between international students groups and indonesia is participating and they're in the same group as Africa n Japan! I wish them lotsss of luck. They really need it. I'm not sure how good the group is, but i know japan is very good! Africa, I think so. All the best, selamat berjuang!

I did some reflection... My family's the best!!! I know I complained how bad my family is, how i wish i'm in different family... sometimes, but honestly, I wouldn't trade to be in another family. My parents shows no favoritism, well they seem to care more about my younger siblings, esp. my sis and sometimes I do feel neglected, but I'm wiser now. I know the reason behind it. My parents listen to what we, the children, have to say and value our opinions. Three of us get along very well with each other. And I hope we won't let adulthood, marriage, and family life come between us. I don't want us to be like my dad and his siblings. We have to learn from the last generation!

Now, my dad is practically running the "family" business himself. Travelling from Jakarta to Tanggerang (about more than an hour, sometimes more than 3 hours due to the traffic jams) daily to oversee the workers. Some "family" business!!! And whatever my dad earned (for the company), he has to split it with the other siblings. Father and son are the same!!! (talking about my uncle and his son!!!) I'm really worried that all those travelling will take a toll on my dad's health. That's why. I want to graduate soon, find a job,and provide for my family. I don't want my dad to work that hard anymore.

random entry, i know.

Back from work... and I was so clumsy... AGAIN!!! This time, I spilled shredded cheese!!! I was holding the packet of cheese by the plastic package when it suddenly torn apart and cheese spilled all over the floor!!! Steward saw it and helped me out. We tried to sweep the cheese as quickly as possible before Eric saw it.Well, in the end, Eric still saw it, but only after we managed to sweep most of it off. Last week, it was Steward who chuang huo when he spilled the wrapping paper all over the floor. I helped him out, so it's his turn to pay me back!

I brought a CD that has Sun yan zi's Yu JIan, and guess what??? Many, well only Lo and Steward, liked it and they kept playing it over and over again, especially Steward. Haha... It's my favorite song too. The lyrics reflect an aspect of my life!

Then, another thing... I always thought that an elder brother would dote on the younger siblings more than an elder sister. I don't know why or when I have such a view. May be because on tv, I always see the big brother is always so protective of their siblings(usually younger sister), and i felt that my bro n sis are close to each other than me to either of them. May be our age gap plays a part. Well, certain things happen and made me rethink of view. He, same as me, has a younger bro n sis. And I don't see him buying stuffs for them or even talk to them on the phone at all. And he always called them bad names (like botak and chu ba jie). I did call my bro and sis names sometimes, but not that mean, I think, and I won't keep calling them that. So, overall, I felt that I'm a better and more doting elder siblings than he is. I really miss my siblings, I miss one of them more than the other. I won't say who (cause I know my sis would read this :P ) Just now, at work, where the guys were the majority, I took the opportunity to ask the guys if they have a younger sibling (s) and if they missed them. Many, or almost all, of them said NO!!! I was shocked!!! Asagi even said that he missed his dog, but he doesn't miss his brother! My conclusion based on this, an elder sister is better than an elder brother!!! Haha...

I should have done this for my english research paper. So much more interesting, but I think I would have a hard time finding sources to support my points!

sooo irritating!!! Chelsea won!!!!
Liverpool vs Chelsea again!!! Honestly, I'm more worried that Liverpool won't be able to beat Chelsea. I'm more confident of liverpool beating valencia, see.

Anyway, it would be interesting to see a Liv vs Man u Final!!! But I prefer not to. I think I know who will win if they meet. A kwa will be vy happy with what i think!

Still can't believe man u beat roma 7-1. Should have watched that match! Goal fiesta!!! I spent my tuesday afternoon taking a much needed nap!!!

Finals are coming!!! I want final to come and be over. Then I would be back!!!! I miss my family sooo much, I miss my friends very much tooo (must mention family first mah...) Yeah, I can still speak Singlish! And no, I don't have American accent. I want to preserve my unique accent! Haha...

It's feel so much better to receive something!!! Haha...

I regretted working last night. I was so tired today and I still have test later in the evening. And I got block nose!!! ARGH!!! Must be the weather! It's April! It's suppose to be warmer! But it's back to winter time again! What's wrong with the weather! Global warming!!! Erratic weather pattern.

Chelsea vs Valencia tmr. I want Valencia to win. Gooooo Valencia!!! You MUST win at home!!! Draw 0-0 also ok. Win by away goal! As long as Chelsea don't go thru to the semi, i don't care what's the scoreline!

Happy Easter!!!

I remembered the sermon that I attended 2 years back on Easter Sunday. The priest was saying how we should remember and celebrate Easter sunday as the resurrection of Jesus Christ and not about the decorative eggs and easter bunnies.

Anyway, i will be spending my easter sunday revising for stat. exam and working.

the gathering went well yesterday. It was a little boring, but if u have someone to talk to, it became more lively. I didn't cook the soup! My aunt cooked it. She woke up early and decided to cook the soup herself. I was both thankful and disappointed. I didn't know why she decided to cook the soup herself instead of letting me and ani cooked it. I know my mum wouldn't. Well, may be she will helped me cooked one pot, but she would let me cook the soup or wake me up to remind me of the time and the soup. I think the latter is better. You have to let your children to learn to be responsible, no? Oh, I miss my mum. I miss my family. I miss my friends!!! I miss home!!!

WE watched the video of the Cultural Night after lunch, and it was filled with jokes and laughter. I really felt that we did a very good job. May be the only aspect that we lost to Japan was in terms of flow. Japan's performance was very continuous, there's not much pause here and there. So, it became more powerful, I guess.

And a funny stuff happened at work last night. Steward liked this chinese girl whom the twins happened to know and he kinna assumed i know her too. He asked me to teach him some chinese, like how to ask if she has a bf, and how to ask her out for a date. Then, he kept bugging me about her. He asked me if i think she has a bf, if the twins like her, blah.... It's really funny. I've never had such a conversation with a guy before!

It's back to winter weather again :( This the most irritating part with Oklahoma weather. When u thought winter was over , it came again!

Anyway, my body felt rather weird lately. It gets chilly easily. I haven't been getting enough sleep, well I felt as if I didn't get enough sleep when I had around 8 hours of sleep every night. Nap just made me more tired...

I met Farrell just now. Know him from the cultural night. We talked and i think he will think of me now as a daddy's or mummy's girl. When he asked who I lived with, I said my cousin, sung. I hate it when ppl asked that. It's not that I want to live with him. it's more like no choice. I wanted to live in the dorm, but my dad wouldn't let me. That's what I told Farrell, too. then about the summer when i told him that my parents won't let me to go back to stillwater earlier to take course. So everything also my parents :( Well, it's true. Even with the distance, my parents, esp. my dad, still has control over me. If I defy him (which i used to in my teenage years. I'm no longer a teenager as of feb 19!) again, i think it would hurt him even more now.
I should not think too much of what others think of me!!! So what if the first (or the third now) impression that he has of me is that i'm a girl who's scared of her parents. I think i just want to give a good impression to people whom I have just met. Well, everyone does that, no?

I can't wait for next semester when i can move out. That is if i get the apt. I applied for. I hope I will. I don't want to say that I live with him. Honestly, I really would rather live with a stranger than him (after all those things he put me through!!!). *sigh* LIFE!!!

The indonesian organization is having a party to celebrate the cultural night. I volunteered to cook soup. Dunno what came over me !!! I think I just want to do something or show that I can contribute, too. Now, I have to cook soup for 40 people!!! That many! I don't even know if I have enough pot. More importantly, I don't even know if the soup will taste good :(

Liverpool thrased PSV 3-0!!!! Gerrard scored a header!!! I know it's still too early to say that liverpool is in the Semi, but i also know that Benitez won't let liverpool sit on their laurels, so keep up the good work, reds!!! Chelsea drew with Valencia. I hope Valencia will win at home! I'm relishing for a show down btw the Reds and Rafa's old club, Valencia!!! Besides, Chelsea vs Liverpool so boring!!! Time for another opponent, please!

Here are some photos from the cultural night....
I am somewhere in the PHOTO... haha...

Cultural Night is over!!! The winner for big group performance was Japan and the winner for small group performance was Nepal. INdonesia was in the big group performance category. We felt that we had done such a great job, especially with the Tari Saman. I heard that Japan have been doing the dance every year. But for first time watcher, like me, their performance was really good and powerful!

Anyway, I'm glad the cultural night is over. I can at least take a breather now. But I think I will miss the companion of all of them. My bahasa indonesia may not be very good now, but I can still interact with them and understand what they're talking and joking about. It reminds me of 4e1 gathering. I will post some photos when I get them.

Well, now it will be time to catch up with my studies! One more month... to Summer Break!!!

Well, since I couldn't post many photos, I decided to described my disney world trip as short and interesting as possible.

Day 1

Magic Kingdom

We were very confused of where to go, how to use the Fastpass, which places to visit first,etc. We walked in an anticlockwise direction and went to the Tomorrowland first. Took a ride in the tomorrowland transit authority, astro orbiter(my cousin, Ani,kept screaming as she was scared when the ride went up and down in a circular motion. She made me scared too :( ) Went to watch Stitch's Great Escape, the place sprayed water and garlic smelled fume, stitch's breath! Dared myself to take a ride from the Space Mountain. My sis advised me to take it last as she said that I would be too scared to try anything else after that. I took it with my male cousin, Ana. We had a fastpass for it, but we still have to queue for quite sometime, mostly due to some technical problem. Some people left after waiting for a couple of minutes. I think we waited for around 10 to 15 min. A family left and right after they left, the ride was functioning again. Patience paid off! It was dark and scary and the carrier (or whatever you call it) turned left and right, up and down at a high speed. I was rather thankful that it was dark! At least I can't really see what's in front and be freaked out (some people may disagree with me).

Visited Micky's and Minnie's houses. Small, but cute!

Ride Splash Mountain- wet!!! We weren't because the boat plunged down, but because of the other boat plunging down as we went into the cave. It made us freeze as we waited patiently for the big plunged!!!

Ana and I took ride in the Big Thunder Mountain Railroad. It was somewhat like Space mountain, but less ups and downs, just turning. Not scary! :D I became braver! Haha... After that, we managed to catch the last few night parade. Then, we rushed off to the castle to watch the fireworks. It was 10 minutes late!!! Anyway, the wait was worth it! The fireworks was so spectacular. They played a song about how dreams can come true if you believe in them. And for that few minutes, as I watched the fireworks and listened to the song, I believed that dreams do come true. Of course, after that, reality knocks in!

Day 2

Epcot

We felt very tired from the trip to the Magic Kingdom. We weren't really energetic. Anyway, we queue up for an hour for Soarin' You sit down and the screen will show places like Golden Gate bridge, mountains, lakes, etc. It makes you feel as if you're flying.

Next, we watched "Honey, I shrunk the audience" A 3-D movie. We were sprayed with water again :(

next, we ride Misson:SPACE. There're 2 option, green and orange. The orange was more intense and we felt a little motion sickness after that. But didn't throw up. We're tougher than that!!! Ana and I tried Test Track. We queued as Single rider as the queue was shorter. But we still managed to sit together. Sharing a car with us was a family of 4. The mother generously switched the places of her childern, so that we can be together. Anyway, we thought that single rider meant that we would be riding alone, but it's just that we would be split, we couldn't ride together.

Then, we visited Mexico, Italy, France, Canada, Japan... Epcot had a showcase of different countries. Different countries in just 5 minutes! Haha... Anyway, we kept taking a break. We looked a little, then sat down. My legs were killing me. It's like I wanted to walk and look around, but my legs were aching! Nonetheless, we still walked finished the entire countries. Oh, and in UK, there's a sport store selling some EPL clubs stuffs, like jerseys, scarfs, balls... And guess what's in the display window??? Liverpool's vintage jersey!!! I saw liverpool scarf and took photos with it. Wanted to buy it, but it was expensive $20!!! Now, I kinna regreted not buying it. I could earn the money back when I work next week :( Oh, well, I still have the scarf Ren gave me!

At night, despite the fatigue, my cousins and I went to Downtown Disney. There's a tendency to say Downtown East! The place was rather big! We didn't buy anything besides food(dinner), because the things were rather expensive and we wouldn't really need the stuffs (dolls, mickey's caps,etc). So, when we see things we like or found it cute, we just take a photo with it, but i still wanted to buy the eeyore doll in pajamas. He's so adorable. Yes, in case u don't know, I like Eeyore!

Day 3

Animal Kingdom.

We were a little less tired today. We were very excited to ride on the Expedia Everest. It's a new ride, just a year-old. And it's the no. 1 must ride in the disney world. How could we miss it? It was more frightening than Space Mountain definitely, and we train drove backward at a high speed. It was so fun!!! I wanted to ride it again, but the long queue contained the temptation. We proceeded to ride through the Kali River Rapids. We were wondering how wet we would be. We saw some people who came out a little wet and some soaking wet from top to toe. We concluded that the degree of wetness would depend on where you sit. I hoped I woundn't get to sit at the "wet" seat. (then again, if we didn't get wet, it wouldn't be fun, right?) Lord seemed to hear my last comment and Ani and I got the "wet" seats. As the boat went down the rapid, boom, water splashed right at us. We were soaking head to toe, while the rest of the riders we just a little wet. Ana was not very wet and he was not satisfied. So, Ani and Ana took another ride. I passed, I was freezing, and i didn't bring any shorts to change, I didn't want to make my jeans any wetter! Well, this time, both of them came out soaking wet! We changed and went back to the hotel. At night, we went to the Downtown Disney again. My aunt wanted to buy chocolates. I was still considering of buying the Eeyore doll. Then I saw another eeyore doll. A baby Eeyore. Soooo cute... Now, I couldn't decide which one to buy. I decided to think about it as we bought the chocolate first. After buying the chocolate, we entered another shop. And I saw an Eeyore... no, it's not another doll, but an eeyore cup... now, I have 3 things that I wanted to buy. Hmph... choices...

... I decided to buy the cup. it's more useful. besides, I still have the eeyore doll that my sis bought for me.

Day 4

Disney-MGM Studio.

There weren't many things to see. I would say that the main attractions are the rock n roller coaster starring aerosmith. Blast from 0-60 mph in 2.8 sec as you twist and loop thorugh Hollywood while grooving' to the best of Aerosmith. WE're brought upside down too!!! I think this was the scariest off all, scarier than the Everst one to me. May be because of the speed and the upside down part. I nearly lost my spec. The car was moving so fast that my spec was blown down to my nose. For a few sec, I was distracted in putting my spec in place that i was oblivious of the ride. Unfortunately, it was not the upside down part. Then, we went to the twilight zone tower of terror. We rode in an elevator and as we reached the 13th floor, we were brought up and down, up and down for 3 or 4 times! We felt as if we're flying as the elevator went down. Scary! The rest of the day were spent watching shows like 3-D muppet shows, Little Mermaid (we were sprayed with water again!!! It's like it's drizzling in the theater!). Ani and I took a photo with Chip and Dale and Mr. Incredibles. We totally felt like a child again!

In fact, i felt like a little girl again. I just wish that my parents and siblings were here with me. Then, we can act like little children again and pester our parents to buy things for us or let us ride in the scary rides! Haha...

Oh, Happy B'day Sista! Called yesterday, but u're still asleep!

Just came back from Disney World!!! Had so much fun!!! Tried out many rides. Didn't know i'm so courageous! Haha... It's scary, but fun! Well, let the photos do the talking!

Isn't this funny?

I lost my Eeyore key chain that YSK gave me as a farewell gift T_T

I was washing it as it was very dirty and then i put it in my jeans pocket. I think it dropped while I was walking home. I couldn't find it anymore. I'm very sad!!! I hope i can find a cute keychain in disney world.

Spring break is coming!!! Orlando, here I come!!!

Update....

I've got a bicycle, a second-hand bicycle. 4 years old, but still in good condition. I had to pump the front tyre though. Haven't found time to pump it, so haven't taken my first ride! Anyway, I finally able to have a bicycle. At least I don't have to walk to work on Sat anymore. It was busy last night. A game day, I suppose. Orders kept coming!!! A new guy, called Marco and Haruyuki kept going out to smoke. I was left to do things on my own. Felt like superwomen. Make pizzas, cut pizzas and sandwiches. Haha... Jeremy, who mend the register, came into the kitchen and was surprised to realized that there're only 2 of us! Haha... His expression was rather funny. Oh, he has an Asian gf! I think she's a vietnamise. Not sure. Anyway, i was tired with all the work, but at closing, I only swept the floor ( i prefer to stay away from the mop now) and arrage the utensils. Marco, especially Haruyuki and Geremy did most of the cleaning :P Then, Marco insisted on driving me and Haruyuki home. Kinna relieved not having to walk home.

there's a set-up collision outside the dining center. I thought it was a real collision. I saw a girl with red marks. My initial thought was she's bleeding and badly hurt, but it doesn't really look like blood, just red (marker) marks. When I read the college paper in the morning, then i dawned upon me that it's a set-up to discourage students from drunk driving! And it became clear why the girl's "blood" looked fake. It was fake!

I want to hit the sack now. Will get back my econ paper. I hope I did well. I don't want to destroy my mood before the spring break, u see.

Nite

Haven't been updating for some time. Yup, busy busy busy...

My break is coming and i'm really excited!!! I hope everything will go smoothly and I will have lots of fun. I know I will. I've never been to Disney world before! I hope my cousins n aunt will too.

I played soccer with my cousin just now. My stamina really deteriorates! We played for like 20 min and we're really tired! We sat down and talked... It's nice to have someone whom you can talk to. She agreed with me that her bro had been manipulated by the twins. Anyway, I have to study for Econ. *sigh* weekend spoiler!

Liverpool vs aston villa tmr!

Liverpool is playing PSV Eidinhoven in the quarter-final. They thrashed them in the group stage I hope they can trash them again.

LIverpool's throught to the Quarter final!!! I can't really say that they beat barcelona, caused they lost the second leg 1-0, but 2-2 aggregate with liverpool having an advantage with 2 away goal vs Barca's 1 put liverpool throught to the next stage :D

I'm sure Gudjohnson was offside!!!!! And crouch missed such a perfect opportunity at the last few minutes!!! I was sweating and kept wanting the referee to blow the whsitle. One more goal by Barca and that's it for Liverpool!!! Yeah!!!

I will also be going to Disney World!!! I really hope that the holiday will be perfect, I will forget all those hurtful stuffs I've been put through. I want a break! I need a break!!! So please let this one week be an enjoyable one. S said he wanted to go to. Honestly, I don't want him to go. It's not really because of the okc incidents. It's because "Ngapain zuo fei zi, wo gen tommy thomas hui jia che qu dallas..." (traslation " why must take plane to go holiday, I can drive to Dallas with tommy thomas). So, my reaction was "why take plane, why go Orlando, go Dallas lah, go drive!" I tell u he purposely shouted those words loudly so that I could hear it from my bedroom.

Anyway, I tried to buy ticket for him. I've bought the tickets for the rest with my card, but can't buy an extra ticket due to the limit. I tried to buy it using his card, but i din know what's wrong with his card. He tried by himself too. Then he gave up. But he didnt' seem to worry that smt may be wrong with his card or if he wouldn't be able to purchase the same ticket. I mean if he did, he could borrow cards from his 2 beloved cousins. He wants people to do things for him. Sorry, I'm not that kind, may be i was a little kind then, but not now. Not after he shows no respect towards me and acts as if his disrespectful behavior towards me is right.

I may become the bad guy here to some, for not getting him the ticket, but my conscience is clear. It is not my fault. I tried to help. I just want my family- my parents, siblings and the other family members who are close to me( my mum's siblings), and my close friends to know that it's not my fault. I dont' care what the others uncles and aunts of my dad side thinks. What they thinks don't really matter. They may think that they know me, but they don't. They don't spend much time with me now. What they know about me is what they hear from others and what they remember from the past. Me of the past is different from the person I am now. I just want people who knows me- the person I am now- to understand me and support me no matter what. And I thank you for that!

I wont' leave people out. Well, at least I will try my best not to. I know very well how it feels. May be he will feel it too. I hope he will! Then he will know how I have been feeling! Things happen for a reason, may this happen for this reason!

Anyway, Liverpool won :D :D :D

Work was rather hilarious yesterday. We're only entitled to free food worth up to $7 and had to write down what we took, but Lo didn't really care much about it. But Eric is very strict and fussy about it. Then, when it's near 5pm, time for Eric to come, Asagi and I quickly finished the food that we're eating. We kept looking around, asking each other "Is Eric here?" My cousins are here visiting and they wanted some pizzas home. I had made one earlier, and had to make another one (before Eric came), but I think he saw me making one for myself. Lo and Asagi told me to hide the pizza so that Eric wouldn't see it. But I decided to just write it down. I don't think Eric would not believe that I didn't have anything for the whole 6 hours... It's funny. it's like we're the mice who're playing around when the cat is away. lol. Also, Eric told each one of us, that we have to write down what we had. All of the people, except Becky, were complaining about him. Asagi said, "He WAS a good guy!" Steward was fooling around by frying some pepperoni. Yoshi muttered that we couldn't eat a pizza, but we can eat the ingredients! Haha...

I'm planning to go to Disneyland for my break :D Then Lo cursed me by saying that there will be a storm, Hurricane Katrina. Stupid LO!!!

I like working on Saturday! It's more fun!!! I'm thinking if I worked in TM, where most of the workers are indian, I don't think I would have such fun.

Work was rather hilarious yesterday. We're only entitled to free food worth up to $7 and had to write down what we took, but Lo didn't really care much about it. But Eric is very strict and fussy about it. Then, when it's near 5pm, time for Eric to come, Asagi and I quickly finished the food that we're eating. We kept looking around, asking each other "Is Eric here?" My cousins are here visiting and they wanted some pizzas home. I had made one earlier, and had to make another one (before Eric came), but I think he saw me making one for myself. Lo and Asagi told me to hide the pizza so that Eric wouldn't see it. But I decided to just write it down. I don't think Eric would not believe that I didn't have anything for the whole 6 hours... It's funny. it's like we're the mice who're playing around when the cat is away. lol. Also, Eric told each one of us, that we have to write down what we had. All of the people, except Becky, were complaining about him. Asagi said, "He WAS a good guy!" Steward was fooling around by frying some pepperoni. Yoshi muttered that we couldn't eat a pizza, but we can eat the ingredients! Haha...

I'm planning to go to Disneyland for my break :D Then Lo cursed me by saying that there will be a storm, Hurricane Katrina. Stupid LO!!!

Dilema.... I was split between going for english lesson or go for the extra credit for my MSIS class. I went there, but my heart told me that I should be in my English class. In the end, I went with my heart and go for my English class. I thought I would regret my decision ,but the english class was interesting. We watched a documentary about teen bullying and how it can lead to killing -- school shooting. It's a strong and provoking film. It made me realise how lucky I was not to experience much of bullying, the physical one, during my school years. All I have to worry about is my grades (and some other things, like cca...) I don't even care much about bgr. Honestly, having classmates or peer that are younger than you helped. I'm not interested in any of them. I like older guys. Well, I do have some crushes on the senior, but it's just a small crush, it didn't affect me much. Anyway, here's some facts about bullying from the film:

-Excluding, spreading rumors, intimidation, teasing, physical attacks are bullying.

Kinna surprised!

Note, excluding is bullying---- I am being bullied :(

Liverpool vs Man U tmr. I want liverpool to win. Please win liverpool!!!

I received my card from A kwa . He didn't lie to me!!! Haha.... Happiness filled me when I looked at the card indicated for me. I knew right away it's from Akwa, his small handwriting is still the same. Don't get me wrong, I'm not happy cause it's from Akwa, but i'm happy cause it's the first b'day card I received this year!!! I can't wait for REn's. She said she will send it by this week.

Stupid Akwa, he said that i'm very old, he even say nin, instead of ni!!! What do u mean by that???

Also, thanks for the stamps! I really appreciate it!!!

The departed was a big winner at last night Oscar. Ellen Degeneres was so comical!!! She should host the Oscar again next year! The departed was adapted from The Internal Affair. I guess this shows that Asian movies are good! No, it's excellent, even those from Hollywood adapted it!

It's so cute when Jaden Smith and Abigail from Little Miss Sunshine presented the awards together. And you could see how proud will and jada smith were!

I think there're a few surprises, including the leading actor. Many were predicting Eddie Murphy to win. Anyway, watching awards show always makes me wonder if I win an award, what would my acceptance speech be. Hmph...

Liverpool trashed Sheffield United 4 to nothing!!! Gerrard scored the fourth goal before he was substituted by Alonso. What a nice way to leave field. Also, I wonder if he will dedicate the goal to Lilly-Ella. Liverpool really played well. I guess their morale got a huge boost by the win at Nou Camp. I told Lo about it, he didn't really know about it. He said he watched the match a bit, but he's more interested in the score. Only Steward really watch soccer. He supported Real Madrid.

Out of nowhere, they came to my workplace, asked me if i wanted a lift home. With my heck care attitude, I said, "Ya udah!" (ok lor). Tommy said that the wind was very strong outside and they would be in the computer lab. I just nodded and continued vacumming the floor. Well, they wanted to gimme a lift, why not?

Anyway, Tommy asked me if I wanted to go home or go to their place. of course I wanted to go home! He also asked if I had eaten. Then, before I alight, he told me that they will be going to OKC tmr and asked if I wanted to go. I said, "no" and quickly alight. Honestly, I do want to go to OKC to buy some asian food, but I don't feel like going with them, and I don't know if they really want me to go or not. I kinna waiting for ani n ana to come so that I have companion. All the way home, only Tommy talked to me. I don't know if he really care, but I still feel sore. I'm quite sure that when I alight, they would talk about me, especially the twins. They will say, they asked me already, it's just that I didn't want to go. Besides, I bet they wouldn't want me to go with them. If they really want me to go, they would have asked earlier and asked why I didn't want to go.

Anyway, I plan to mug the whole day tomorrow. Exams are coming!!! If anything, I at least will have my academic records to be proud of.

Typhon is coming!!! The wind was so strong it blew away my potted plant :(

It's Lilly-Ella Gerrard's birthday. Yup, she's Gerrard's first daughter. She turns 3 this year. Happy Birthday!!! She could have shared the same birthday as me, but she chose to "come out" on the 23rd instead. Lol.

Yesterday was Boonsak's birthday!

Happy birthday to everyone whose birthday is in Februaray. February babies rulez! :P

I was so clumsy at work last night. I was mopping the floor. The mop was rather heavy. while lifting it from the pail, the mop entangled with the handle, and the pail tripped over. Water was everywhere!!! One-third of the kitchen was flooded. I was more embarrased rather than panic. Well, I manged to get it as "dry" as possible, but the floor was rather dirty. Yuki helped me a little. Luckily, only Yuki saw how flooded the floor was, the rest of the people only saw it after I get most of the water.

I was really really really happy that Liverpool beat Barcelona, it's as if Liverpool has won the CL again. But the battle is only half-won. Go Liverpool.

It sucks big time not being able to talk about the match. I called my dad after the match. But that as much discussion I had :( I missed watching the match in the wee hours, waking my mum and sis up with my shouts when Liverpool won :P Then, I would go to school happily, and teased all those people who doubted Liverpool. I missed those days. I asked Yuki if he watches soccer, he said he watched a little, but he doesn't really know Barcelona! Anyway, I told him how happy I was for half a minute, and then back to work. In the past, I would be happy all day long!!! Talking non-stop about the feat, especially to A kwa! Haha....

Oh, I talk to A kwa on msn just now. He didn't watch the match, he said Liverpool matches are boring. Whatever, Man U fan! He said he send me a B'day card, I won't believe him until I receive it. He always tricks me with his lies!!!

Phew! Ronaldinho missed the freekick. I hate the cameraman. He's building the anticipation by zooming on Ronaldinho then Reina, Reina, Ronaldinho... I was shouting, "hurry up! Kick the ball!!!"

Another close shave! Saviola nearly scored (I screamed in fright). Reina palmed it away, but it's not over. Messi kicked the ball.... but didn't find the net.

Yeaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!! Riise scored! Liverpool's in the lead!!!!!!!!!!!! Gerrard passed perfectly to Kuyt. He missed it. Bellamy received the rebound, saw Riise, passed and Riise slam the ball into the net!

Barcelona tried to come back. No chance for it!

Liverpool won!!! Liverpool BEAT Barcelona at Camp Nou!!! It's not a dream!!! It's a reality!!!

Anfield awaits!

My excitement was replaced by disappointment when I saw the scoreline at the 25th minute. Deco has scored a goal in the 14th minute. I screamed, but glad not to have seen that goal.
The pain would be more excruciating! Bellamy nearly scored. I cringed as he headed the ball outside the post. What a perfect opportunity to get back into the game! Nonetheless, he made up for it. He headed another one after receiving a perfect pass from (who else) Steven Gerrard! Valdes caught the ball... not in time to prevent it from crossing the goal line. Liverpool scored!!!! I wanted to jump, I wanted to scream, I'm so happy. At least the Reds scored a goal against the supposedly best team in the world! Yeah!!! Half-time: Barca 1-1 Liverpool. Go liverpool!!! Keep the score! Don't let Barca came back!

It's tomorrow!!!

Liverpool vs Barcelona!!!

I wish for miracle to happen, but deep down, I know Barca will trash Liverpool. *sigh* the night in Istanbul will never happen again, not this soon, I think. But still, I hope Liverpool will at least manage a draw, but it's Camp Nou (or Nou Camp) they're playing in!!! All the best Reds! You'll Never Walk Alone!!!

Liverpool training at Camp Nou

I'm officially older by a year now!!! NO cake. I don't like the walmart cake, and I don't know if there's anywhere else to buy cake.

I want to thanks my family for the calls!

I want to thanks REN and Jac very much for their clips. Thanks Ren for making 3 versions of birthday songs. They're all equally good!!! But if i've to choose, i like the third one. U and ur "soprano" voice. Haha... Helped start my day! And jac, thanks for your video. It makes the rest of my day even better!!! Yeah, I'm a year younger than u thought!!! Nonetheless, I'm really touched and thankful for u to make those clips. You totally made my day!!! Love u both!!! And my family too, of course!!!

Come to think of it, I did have a very early b'day celebration last year, on the day before I left S'pore! A "farewell" cake becum a birthday cake! Thanks for e early celebration, guys!

I've told them. I felt somewhat better to finally able to get this off my chest. I just hope that i don't make them worry about me even more.

Why does it seem to be my fault? Why is it that despite being the one who's hurt, I seem to be the guilty party? Why do I have to be the one who give way? Why does it seem as if i'm asking for this? Whatever it is, I have me! I can survive on my own! I will make more friends, I will take care of myself, so I don't need you all to worry about me! I don't need them! I won't kiss their asses just so that they would do things for me. I'm hurt and unhappy, and I dont' want to pretend as if nothing happen. I'm not a good actor, otherwise, I would go to Hollywood!

oh, i just checked my msis result. Yeah, I screwed it up. I got a C!!! :( Should have studied the textbook! From now on, I will make sure I studied the textbook till i know every single word in it! well, may be not all. It's a torture for a person who's not computer savy, who's not interested in computer parts, to study computer!!! But i will do well. I will get an A for this subject or I would be letting myself down!!! I did well in my sciences at O lvl, so I can do this too!!!

Today, New Year's Eve. It's supposed to be a day for reunion dinner. Reunion dinner I did not have, but I didn't have dinner alone. I had dinner with my fellow part-time workers at the pizza restaurant. Oh, and I got a Hello Kitty "red packet" from Asagi! (insert below) Haha...




It began with me asking Asagi if Japanese celebrate Lunar New Year. As it turned out, Japanese don't celebrate it. We talked and then at some point, I told him that during Chinese New Year, the children would get a red packet with money inside. He excitedly told me that he also gets "red packet" (the packet is not red in color, u see) with money inside during NEw Year (Jan 1) which the japanese celebrates. He reached for his wallet, and took out some stuffs and then he found the "red packet" that his grandmother gave him for the new year. Of course, there's no more money inside. HE gave it to me. I opened it and "demanded" for money. He gave me a penny which of course I rejected. He let me keep the HEllo Kitty "red packet", and told me to put money in it myself :( Then, Lo (the student supervisor, who's from Hong KOng) saw me holding the "red packet". I told him that it's my first "Red packet" for the year! I made a sad face saying that there's no money in the "red packet". I asked him for some money. Again, I was given a penny (which i turned down, again!). Anyway, I wished Lo "Gong Hei Fat Choi"! And asked for a red packet from him. He gave a typical answer, " I'm not married yet!"

Oh, Yoshi (the jap guys who used to be housekeeper too) started working at Pistol Pizza today. Talk about reunion! We caught up a little, but most of the time, he taked to his fellow countrymen.

That's how my first Chinese New Year's Eve in US went. Well, at least I have a "red packet"! Thanks, Asagi!


P.S. I talked to Lo about Gerrard!!! He doesn't know who Steven Gerrard is!!!! He played soccer, but didn't really watch it. I told him, that he knows who steven gerrard is now and he better remember it! Haha... I was bored, and I haven't been psychoing people about liverpool and gerrard the way i psycho jac, ren, and monica. Haha... I miss those days!

After weeks of being left out, I was suddenly remembered. Oh, how thoughtful! All of the sudden, I exist! Told me not to go to work, to go to okc for a dinner (or smt). Yeah, if I was informed a week ahead, I would go (well, may be. I'm still sore, my wound have yet to heal, by the way), but a few hours before? I could not just call tmr and said, "sorry, I can't work today, i've emergency!" What emergency? Erm... Besides, I still have to attend a compulsory meeting tmr morning!
If I was remembered earlier, a week or a few days earlier, I would discuss this with my supervisor, and work things out. But a few hours ahead? I can just be irresponsible and didn't go to work or the meeting, but I don't want. It's just not right! It's just not me! Moreover, who will I be having a "reunion dinner" with? A group of people who I don't know and who have not been acknowledging my existance... Not forgetting, I'm still in the middle of a cold war.

Should I tell them? I wanted to tell them, but I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do. I don't want to blow up the whole matter. I don't want to complicate matter. But I wanted to tell them so much. I really do, but each time, I hold back. I'm worried. I'm confused...

... I told myself, it's better not to tell them... yet. I may tell them one day...perhaps. But not now.

A lonely Chinese New Year.... a lonely Birthday!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone (except me)!!!!

I think I screwed my msis exam yesterday. Most questions came out from the textbook and I only read throught it once. I read the slides, but apparently, they're rather useless.

Working on Thrusday night was the worst decision I've made this semester! I was so tired today. I was so tired that I handed the wrong thing for my english class and I couldn't remember what I gave to the teacher. *sigh*

Talking of exam, here's what Gerrard did on his GCSEs.

"I sat in the exam hall thinking hard over one important question: exactly how I would burn my uniform. The clock showed barely an hour before I sprinted out the room. I have never run so quick to a bus-stop. I wanted to get back to Ironside, get into my normal clothes, ditch my uniform... " How did your exam go?" Mum asked. "Yeah, fine," I replied, knowing I had done shite. I handed her my uniform. "Just pop that in the bin, please, Mum." A new uniform awaited me: Liverpool FC."

I was LMAO when I read the bolded parts! Well in the end, he really did shite, I must say, a C in English, six Ds and two Es! At least he's good a something-- football!

I'm beginning to dislike going to classes. Sooo boring. As soon as I sat down for my first class of the day, I can't wait to go home. Yeah, I could choose not to attend class, but I've paid for the tuition, and if I didn't go to class, I wouldn't know what's going on and it didnt' help that I didnt' really know anyone in my classes. I miss the old days at Zhss.

U know having a guy in the house it's really not an advantage. Well, if that guy is a father and may be brother ( a brother of mine better be) , yeah, they would be useful.
I called home more and more often now. I'm really really homesick. With Chinese New Year and my birthday coming, I miss my family even more. I want to go home :(

Stomachache... I guess I won't be going for the meeting at 3pm. Well, I did give a thought of going there, although I would feel like a fish out of the water, not knowing anyone there. But my stomach is killing me!!! But I still find way to blog. Heh, I wanted to talk about Gerrard!

And about work yesterday. There weren't many customers. Although I didn't really like it, I think it's better than having too much orders! Anyway, I talked more to Asagi. We talked about chinese characters and Japanese. He told me that there's 3 types of characters used in Japanese words. One is Chinese, I don't really know how to say the other two, but one set is for the direct translation of English words based on their sound. So this set of words has no meaning, just sounds. He wrote a set of words for my name :D
The other set is the usual Japanese characters. He also told me that his name Asagi consist of only 1 chinese character- cai (cai hong de cai), and it's not a common Japanese name and many Japanese don't what that is and how it is pronounced. Interesting!

Steward worked for 10 hours again. HE said he's working for 10 hours every Saturday. Crazy! When he saw me writing some chinese characters, he snatched my pen and drew some kindergarten standard drawing--- tv, people, boat, house-- and said that they're chinese characters! Well, for the record, he knows how to write people or human (ren) in chinese. He's a vietnamese. He taught me a vietnamese word - xin chao- means hello or hi! There's another funny thing. Yuki brought a cd, he wanted to write Avril Lavigne on it. Instead, he wrote "Averil Rubbin?" Haha... Becky saw it and asked him if he meant "Avril Lavigne". Then both of us laughed.

10 more days to Liverpool vs Barcelona!!! I can't wait! I really hope that the connection is smooth and I would be able to watch it online!

Time for another excerpt from Gerrard's autobiography

Born to be Red

"Cut my veins open and I bleed Liverpool red." --- I love this sentence. It's such a power message, it filled me with awe and I could felt Gerrard's love and passion for Liverpool. It's a perfect sentence to be used by any die-hard Liverpool fan. I don't think I am qualified to say that yet. I'm crazy about Liverpool, but not that crazy. My friends may beg to differ, but seriously, I am considered sane compared to the real die-hard fan!

continuing...

A close shave

" My career was nearly destroyed before it started. All my dreams of starring for Liverpool and England, of lifting European Cupts and shining in World Cups, rested on the skill of a surgeon when I was only nine... Agony. Total agony. My foot hit something. Jesus, the pain was merciless. I nearly had a heart attack. I fell down, screaming for help. In my career I've had smashed metatarsals and torn groins, but honest to God, I have never felt pain like this. Like poison from a needle, it shot up my shins...I looked down and couldn't believe my eyes. A garden fork was embedded in my big toe... I heard the doctor say, 'The fork is rusty, there's a chance of gangrene. We might have to take the toe off to stop any gangrene spreading.' 'Wait,' Dad intervened. 'Steven plays football, you must speak to Liverpool before you do any operation. They must know what is going on.'My dad quickly called Steve Heighway, Liverpool's Academy director...'No, you are not bloody well taking his toe off,' Steve told them... The surgeon numbed he whole foot and tugged the fork out. The hole was huge, as big as 20p coin and an inch and a half deep. It was a mess, but at least the surgeon saved my toe and my career... The one half-decent thing about the accident was that I missed three weeks of school. The doctors insisted, so who was I to argue! School sent homework round but it never get done. No chance..."

Every child hates school, no?

If Gerrard lost his toe, he might not make it to be a footballer, and I might not support him. I may be crazy about some other footballer. May be Michael Owen. I don't know. But what a tragic accident for a nine-year-old to go through. It makes me admire Gerrard even more!

Liverpool lost 2-1 to newcastle. I think Steven Taylor dived. I saw the contact that he and Riise made, but the way he fell was so exaggerated! But penalty was awarded anyway and as Solano sent Reina the wrong way, Newcastle took the lead. Liverpool made more attempt on the attacks, but to no avail :(

I've been reading Gerrard's autobiography. It's funny yet inspiring. I will give u an except in my entry every now and then.

" As my car inches passt the Memorial, I looked down the names of those who fell on the Leppings Lane End, never to rise again. My eyes stop at one mane. Jon-Paul Gilhooley, ten years old, the youngest of htose who never came home from Sheffield... I knew Jon-Paul. He was my cousin... Jon-Paul adored Liverpool with the same fervour that fills me whenever I pull on that red shirt. We were so alike.... Whenever I saw Jon-Paul's parents during my Youth Trainee Scheme days at Anfield, it gave me an extra determination to suceed. Just before I made my Liverpool debut, they said, 'Jon-Paul would be so proud of you.' During that match, I felt Jon-Paul was looking down on me, pleased I was fulfilling a dream we both shared... It breaks my heart every day just to think Jon-Paul is not here any more... I have never let anyone know this before, but it's true: I play for Jon-Paul."

How is it feel to be left out?

It sucks big time. It makes you feel as if you're alone in this world with no one to depend on except yourself. It makes you cry. It makes you wonder if your decision was right. It makes you want to go home to your family and friends because they're the ones (perhaps the only ones) who loves you, care about you and won't leave you out of their plan. I hate those feelings, but those are what I am experiencing right now. I am sorry to those people whom I have left out before. Sorry for my ignorance and insensitivity. I will remember the desolated feelings so that I won't leave anyone in my plan (not if it is for revenge)!

I'm so happy :D I finally received Gerrard autobiography that I've ordered!!! I'll treat it as an early Birthday present for myself :D I'm so over the moon. I know that by the time I read the book ,the content would be rather irrelevant with the time, but better late than never.

Here's the front and back covers of the book sitting on my bed

England lost 1-0 to Spain. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be happy or sad, but I found myself smiling when I saw the score :P Yeah, gerrard played, but it's just a friendly match, so not that much of an importance, no?

Nothing much happen in school. Oh, I met Steward. HE also worked in Pistol Pizza. It's the first time I met my collegues outside the restaurant. I didn't see him at first, but he waved and said "Hi!" to me. I asked him why he was sitting on the floor. He answered that he liked it. Haha... He's a little weird. Last Saturday, he worked for 10 hours! And he's always pulling the food from the oven early. Dunno y. Got back Econ exam. I did well!!! Yeah, so happy for myself!

Chinese New Year is coming. I want to get ang pao, eat all the chinese new year snacks!!!! To add salt to my wound, my birthday, first "non-teenage" b'day falls on the second day of Chinese New Year!!! I could use this to get double ang pao, right? But I'm here not there :(
I really don't know how I'm going to celebrate my b'day. Most prob, i won't be celebrating it. May be I will just buy a small cake for myself or treat myself to a nice meal! I have to be good to myself since others aren't

just came back from my first ever spanish lesson. It's a very small class, and I mean really small, only 5 people attended. Anyway, I learnt a few spanish vocab. La papa--- potato. I thought it means father. Haha... Well, father is Papa(cap. P). There's this catchy word-- quita cuticula (pronounce: kita kuticula). It means cuticle remover. I didn't know such thing exists!!! I guess there's more than spanish that I learnt tonight :D

Anyway, a new chapter of history took place in liverpool fc. Liverpool is now officially belongs to American businessmen George Gillett and Tom Hicks. Hicks: 'I had obviously heard of Liverpool but once I had a chance to read about the 118 years of history, the 18 league championships, the bleak years in the 1930s and 40s through to the 60s and then the tragedies of the 1980s, I was just awe-struck by what this community has done, it is very, very special.' ( Soccernet.com) A club with a rich history--- that's liverpool!!! But I hope they won't sell the naming rights of the new stadium. Then again, there will only be one Anfield. (And I want to go there before liverpool 'moved house'!!!)

I wonder if Liverpool will come to US one day. I mean their new owners are americans!!! If they do, I will go to the state where they visited , by then, I should be able to speak some spanish and can impress Rafa. Haha... Of course, I want to meet Gerrard too!!! May be I should bring a magazine or two from Singapore with gerrard in the cover so I could ask him to sign it.

"Talking is so overrated"--- Grey's Anatomy. I agree!!! Silence is golden. Anyway, we've been giving each other cold shoulders. If he's (they're) not going to talk to me, then I won't. Even if they do, I will ignore them. Otherwise, would they think about me, the emotional hurt they've put me thru???? Whatever! I'm enjoying the time when i won't be bugged about school work :D

I've been thinking of taking Spanish lesson. I've asked and there's a lesson this evening. I will go n see. It's good to learn new things, no? Besided, if I want to work in US, it would be better to know some Spanish with many Mexicans here. I have nothing to do in the evening too. I also wanted to take Craft class, but clash with my lesson time :( I'm thinking of taking Korean class. Then, I could understand korean drama and what jj n glorick talk about ;P

There's also cultural night coming and the indonesian association were asking for people to participate. Finally, I received their email. I didn't get any of it last semester. Anyway, they're thinking of putting up a fashion show, singing session and an angklung performance (and dancing too i think). I'm interested in the angklung, but I'm a little reserved, caused i'm not very good with musical instrument, that's y I always hated music lessons!!! I definitely won't dance. I can't seem to be able to remember dance routines well. Enuf of dancing from TJ's orientation. No more please!!! I don't know. I want to join, but....

I've been complaining about my cousins in my previous blog. Sorry if it bores u readers ( I wonder who read my blog). Anyway, I just want to vent out my anger.

My hometown was flooded. IN some part, the water is as high as 2 m. My dad nearly couldn't go to s'pore. I'm glad he made it there safely. Floods were a common occurance in jakarta. Part of my childhood memories were about playing in the flood- folding paper boats and let it sailed on the murky water, catching tadpoles or small fishes, splashing water. Another common occurance was blackout! I wouldn't say that i missed them, but floods and blackouts brought the whole family together!

I'm trying to study for my econ exam. I'm struggling with the concept of opp. cost. Sometimes I get it, but sometimes I don't. I just hope that i would have sufficient time to finish the paper and not make a careless mistake. This makes me rethink if I really want to study economics. I'm taking stats, too and I really enjoy stats. It's like maths! I wonder what stats major do.

Liverpool drew in a derby!!!! And it's played at Anfield!!! Wanted to watch but woke up late :P

Oh, here, they called a derby "Bedlam". Don't know why.

I went to play racquetball with JJ and Glorick last night. Wanted to play badminton, but the court was booked. So JJ suggested racquetball. They taught me how to play it, it's hard. I was afraid the ball might hit me!!! Haha...And i had to run all over the court to chase the ball. So tiring. When I reached home, Sung was already home. He asked me where i went to. I told him that I was having fun with JJ and Glorick( without him!!!) I couldn't really tell if he's disappointed, but I hope he was. Next time, when he and the twins had "fun" at okc, he would know what it's like to be left out!!!

He told me that the twins told him that it's dangerous to drive in the highway for the first time alone. I agree. But what angered me is that they did not say that because they're really worried, more like not wanting to be left out when we go to okc or want to go to okc when THEY like it. And sung asked me to call in sick on sat. This time, I raised my voice and told him, why don't u call in sick on fri and then we go on fri and then we could stay there overnight???

They called last night. I think they're planning to go out today. I don't care!!!! I had my way to get back at them. You know, they (the whole family) cared more about S and really helped him, but not me. TAke helping to ask for a job for example. I don't know why(may be got to do with them being closer with his family) Anyway, I got my job now by my own. At least I could be proud of that!!!

I tried not to cry. I chose to come here. Even my dad suggested for me to choose other better university to go to. But I was afraid to be alone. Now, I would rather be alone than being surrounded by them.

I'm watching Let It Shine on youtube. I miss S'pore drama. Seeing the HDB flats, schools and shopping centers, gave me a nostalgic feeling. I think the show is quite nice. But would a teacher be such a busy body like the character Felicia Chin's playing in real life? I don't think so. I think a teacher should be able to draw a line and not meddle too much with his or her students personal life. May be I should ask Deng lao shi about this.

So my cousin's got a car, but then the twins and him (but mostly is the twins) ganged up and bully me!!! I've got to work on Sat, and they prefer to go to okc on Sat. I was really mad!!! They asked me to call in sick and not to go to work! To think they're my cousins and share some DNA with me!!! I won't do that (if I still work in the hotel, may be). I would rather spent my Sat at the restaurant kitchen, earning money. Why must I accomodate them? Why can't they be more accomodating towards me?
If they're going to be a bunch of jerks, I can be a total bitch too!!! And bitch bites! (don't know what jerks are capable of). I bear grudge! You offend me, I will remember it and when the time comes, u will get ur retribution (from me)!!! Irritating!!!